I am a fifth generation Mormon on my Dad’s side, and my mom is a convert who immigrated to the US from Finland. I acquired my own testimony of the gospel at age 8, and eventually served in the Swiss Geneva Mission and was a Kimball Scholar at BYU. I left BYU and the Church after nearly committing suicide after my junior year. After wrestling for some years coming to terms with my sexuality, I felt guided to explore the possibility of a committed, same-sex relationship. I met my husband Göran in 1992, and we recently celebrated our 20th anniversary as a couple. In 2005, the Spirit spoke clearly and undeniably to me, prompting me to return to activity in the Church, but also reaffirmed the goodness of my relationship with my husband. We married legally in California in July 2008. I love the Church with all my heart, and continue to live gospel principles the best I can and to be active in my ward, despite remaining excommunicated. I teach American Religious History at United Theological Seminary of the Twin Cities. I am grateful for the many opportunities for faithful service that the Lord gives me both outside and on the margins of the Church.